I wasn't sure how I was going to write this post or explain why I wanted to refocus, and then my husband played this video and I was like... hey that's me! Watch the video (or just listen to it). I know it is a bit long, but it is full of awesome insight on failure.
No... I didn't drop out of college (I have a wonderfully unused bachelors degree!), but I have been wandering, too afraid to really participate in life. So, I am taking just a little more time and I coming back as a real person. Showing real work and not just things that I think people will like (the term bloggable items comes to mind). Get ready to see how I create, unfinished raw product, real life and to hopefully be inspired. I will be changing things around here. Some posts will be leaving, and new ones will be coming in to better portray what I need this blog to be. I am going for the big epic failure here and doing what I really want with all the cards on the table, fully invested. I want people to not like me for the real me, not for being what I think I have to be to fit in here in the blog world. This is me putting into action my New Year's resolution to take the fear out of failure.
Please don't think I regret one minute of what this blog has been so far. I have learned so much and I never thought I would even have one reader and now I have all of you! I am just ready to really step into the arena.
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat. -- Theodore RooseveltI hope you will stick around to see what's in store!